I am an adaptable person, I always knew that but I have never been more aware of it than during recent months. Or to be certain starting January 15th, when the last grandparent flew back home, and we were left dealing with lack of time and lack of discipline on our part, and a nanny who we trust but is available very limited hours. So on the plate: tons of housework and cooking, a son who I love and want to spend time with and a full time job. All of that equals to absolutely no time for myself which anybody need and I definitely need too but the truth to be told there is just not enough hours in a day. All and all it makes me tired, cranky and whiny. And I really don't like to be that person. So I am trying to do what I can to fix it by trying to fit more interesting and fun activities into the time I have.

Usually by the time I have my free hour at night I am pretty tired, so I am looking at something not too complicated or needed large amounts of force. I look for fun little projects, like blogging, reading more books, drawing or painting. Next on the list is to try needle-pointing (when I was in my teens I really enjoyed it) and meditation. At other times I work in the the garden and exercise, I may not always have time to get to the gym, but at least I try to go for a walk or a run, and it makes me already happier by just being on my list. Doesn't seem much but as a time passes by I discovered that it is working. Probably I should ask my hubby if he notices any difference. Because as I am evaluating myself I feel that I am acting much lighter in some situations that would set me up on a war path only a couple months ago.

As I try to find anything that I can do to enjoy life more in given circumstances, to stop and sit on a bench to enjoy the weather, not to be worried that I will miss my bus and will get home later than expected. Sometime just breathe before rushing into something. I think people can change even if they are taking baby steps. The person should step out of their comfort zone a little bit. I have never thought I would enjoy gardening, but I do, even if chipmunks will eat all of my tomatoes. I can't say that I am a different person but my attitude is definitely much better.